amidst all that is going on with my current gig, we are also moving offices.  we will be leaving our wonderful South of Market location by AT&T park, to San Mateo….

i have been in SOMA for the last 5 years, and i will really miss it. no more 3 inning lunches at the ball park.  no more walking to happy hour after work. no more blue bottle coffee from cento!   hopefully i won’t be in the new office for long though.  at minimum 2 weeks, at most 2 months.  not sure, but should have clarity by next week.  where i go after that i still haven’t decided.

this is the view from my office balcony.  the haziness is due to my crappy blackberry camera…it is in fact an absolutely beautiful day.

at least the weather gods are behaving today.

Well it looks like my time at my current post has finally run it’s course and soon I will be exiting. Already I have another job waiting.  A good job, not a great one.  Definitely interesting, a different business model than I’m used to, and I get to resume traveling for work; something I missed dearly at present.  They are also throwing a substantial chunk of equity at me, which is quite enticing. My dilemma is this:  I have to make my decision in the next day or two.  They said they would wait 30 days for me to finish up what I need to do at the current place, but I can’t really ask them to wait 60 days for me so that I can take at least a month off.  I am exhausted though.  Physically, mentally, emotionally spent.  I’ve always said that when this gig was over, I would take at least a few months off.  Maybe travel to places that I’ve always wanted to go, and the timing couldn’t be better.  If I accept the new job, I will be working pedal to the metal again, and I just don’t know if I have that drive anymore.  In the past, I had very clear direction.  It was simple math.  The harder I worked, the more I was capable of achieving my goals.  Not that my goals were grand, but they were hefty enough that I accepted the fact that I would have to make sacrifices, work as hard as I can, in order to obtain what I sought after.  However, at present, my goals have changed.  More accurately I don’t really even know if I have any goals. I have no idea where I want to be, where I want to go. There is no dire need for me to work so hard.  Money?  What good is money if I lose what little sanity I have left? I have been a cubicle rat jockeying spreadsheets for over 11 years now, and I am tired, drained and uninspired. But what’s to guarantee I don’t feel the same way after a 3 month hiatus? 6 months? 1 year?  In an economic climate where people are struggling to find employment, should I not be prudent and take a good offer?  After all, I do have bills to pay, and a mortgage to make.  Another scenario (that has happened before) is; what if 3 months down the road my former boss, at a new post, calls and asks me to jump on board?  I don’t think I could ever ask for a better boss to work for, but my sense of honor will not allow me to abandon the new company, especially since they are bending over backwards to accommodate me.  Do I want to lock myself into a good, but not great situation?  I wish the universe could just give me a sign and nudge me in the right direction.  *sigh* what to do?

on the way to Breckenridge, CO…. altitude 9,603 ft above sea level (almost 2 miles high!)

our place for the next few

the gear

 

to Copper Mountain

GY, MK, TF, DW
 

TF’s excited!

so is LW and DW

MK

somewhere near the top
 

last pic at Copper

downtown Breckenridge

dinner at Modis
cioppino

rack of lamb with tempera asparagus
 

buffalo short ribs
 

Breckenridge Mountain (highest lift in North America!)

TF getting ready

DW, GY, and LW also getting ready

random pic on the lift

group pic

last pic in town
 

quick trip to Denver
 

this is a great song the wangster shared with me.

and i’m the last person to leave the office…fack!

one m*therf*cking day left!  not going to count out today being a crumby one though.  last week, when i thought i was close to the end of 2009, and thought what else can go wrong, i get stuck in the woods snowboarding, and had to walk about a half an hour in waist deep snow only to have to walk another 30 minutes up the mountain before being snow mobiled back to the lodge by ski patrol.  victim of my wonderful sense of direction again.  i still contend though, if they didn’t want me to go out of bounds, they should have roped it off!! HA!  whatever.

i’ve had enough sadness and frustration in 2009 to last a lifetime.  i guess it wasn’t a complete loss though, a few individuals have either entered or re-entered my life, and through them, i have had more smiles lately than i’ve had all year. for that, i am truly thankful. 

i wish everybody a very happy new year.  please exercises good judgment, and be safe.