April 7, 2010
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Decisions
Well it looks like my time at my current post has finally run it’s course and soon I will be exiting. Already I have another job waiting. A good job, not a great one. Definitely interesting, a different business model than I’m used to, and I get to resume traveling for work; something I missed dearly at present. They are also throwing a substantial chunk of equity at me, which is quite enticing. My dilemma is this: I have to make my decision in the next day or two. They said they would wait 30 days for me to finish up what I need to do at the current place, but I can’t really ask them to wait 60 days for me so that I can take at least a month off. I am exhausted though. Physically, mentally, emotionally spent. I’ve always said that when this gig was over, I would take at least a few months off. Maybe travel to places that I’ve always wanted to go, and the timing couldn’t be better. If I accept the new job, I will be working pedal to the metal again, and I just don’t know if I have that drive anymore. In the past, I had very clear direction. It was simple math. The harder I worked, the more I was capable of achieving my goals. Not that my goals were grand, but they were hefty enough that I accepted the fact that I would have to make sacrifices, work as hard as I can, in order to obtain what I sought after. However, at present, my goals have changed. More accurately I don’t really even know if I have any goals. I have no idea where I want to be, where I want to go. There is no dire need for me to work so hard. Money? What good is money if I lose what little sanity I have left? I have been a cubicle rat jockeying spreadsheets for over 11 years now, and I am tired, drained and uninspired. But what’s to guarantee I don’t feel the same way after a 3 month hiatus? 6 months? 1 year? In an economic climate where people are struggling to find employment, should I not be prudent and take a good offer? After all, I do have bills to pay, and a mortgage to make. Another scenario (that has happened before) is; what if 3 months down the road my former boss, at a new post, calls and asks me to jump on board? I don’t think I could ever ask for a better boss to work for, but my sense of honor will not allow me to abandon the new company, especially since they are bending over backwards to accommodate me. Do I want to lock myself into a good, but not great situation? I wish the universe could just give me a sign and nudge me in the right direction. *sigh* what to do?
Comments (2)
Oh, the awful dance between money and sanity! Sounds like you’re in a decent predicament, though. So many others are stuck in their job or stuck, unable to find a job. Compared to them, you’re in a great place.
Cold comfort, I’m sure, since you still have to make a decision. Have you considered calling your former boss and seeing what he’s up to? That might give you some indication if there might be something good to come. Otherwise, I’d suggest taking the new opportunity. Usually, when opportunity knocks it is wise to answer.
sounds like you need a break. If the new place wants to hire you, they’ll be willing to hire you in the future. I say take a month off and clear your head!